This year I first began to make changes in my behavior (eating a healthier diet) and then made my goal (to lose 40 pounds). For many years I have made resolutions that I was not able to keep because I was trying to force myself to do something without really being ready to make the change. The difference for me this year is that I actually feel ready and excited about losing this excess weight so the changes feel easy. I look forward to this new journey!
Over the last 9 months I have been challenged with a couple of Achilles tendon surgeries and the painful task of healing. I have been on crutches the majority of the time and was in a cast for 2 months of the time. To say the least I have been challenged beyond what I ever imagined. From not being mobile to living with constant pain has given me a new perspective on what other people go through that have physical issues. It has been a very eye opening experience. I'm still not walking without a limp and I have constant pain but it is better and that means a lot to me.
The other part of this experience has been the amount of junk or comfort food I have been eating while ignoring the healthier foods. Just because I write the health tips does not mean I always follow them! Yes, that probably had an affect on my healing as well. As a result I am heavier than I have ever been in my life and that feels awful. I feel embarrassed, frustrated and angry with myself for not being able to control the cravings and allowing myself to feel crummy on a daily basis. That feeling of fullness, bloating and constant hunger has plagued me more in the last few months with the holiday treats. I live above a general store and I walk by the bakers area too many times to count each day, and those baked goods have been my biggest downfall. Between overeating and eating too many white flour foods I added on more pounds and felt awful day after day.
Right after Christmas I made the decision that I want to feel better, I want to fit into my clothes and I want to like the way I look in my clothes. I have taken some action steps including buying and prepping lots of salad foods - lots of raw veggies - and getting back on an exercise program. So far my scale tells me I have released an easy 6 pounds and my ideal goal is to lose another 40 pounds. I'm here to come clean and step out from behind the curtain of the internet and tell you my truth.
I'm making a commitment to eating nutrient dense whole foods and eliminating the processed and unhealthy foods. I will let you now how it goes as we travel through 2016! I will say I am feeling excitement at the prospect of releasing all this extra weight and feeling great once again!
What are you up to this year?